"I have this picture in my head that I have sort of an ‘elevator system’ for my feelings. This is just an analogy, of course, but I feel that in the past, every time I had a strong feeling it was immediately put in an elevator and sent deep down in some dark warehouse and stored before I had any chance to feel it at all. Like it was gone before it could have a chance to really hurt me and make me feel sad, or a chance to make me happy and feel good. That means that I am (was) seemingly not upset by my feelings."  http://avoidantpersonality.org/?page_id=181